slumber party!

Earlier this week the two lovely ladies that I nannied for a summer came to have a slumber party! It was so fun. There was copious amounts of glitter (and glitter glue) involved. We played so many board games. We gushed about celebrity crushes. We even created blogs for each of them to start sharing their own stories. They girls (so they're not really "girls" anymore...they're growing so quickly!) and I'm so thrilled that we were able to hang out. Mac and cheese was consumed (with hotdogs for the meat eaters of the bunch). And sparkling grape juice was imbibed from fancy wine glasses. We even pretended we were sommeliers for a bit and the girls were absolutely hilarious with their descriptions of the "wine." We all slept 'neath the lights of the Christmas tree and had pancakes for breakfast! What fun. It's been too long since I've had a slumber party. I hope we get to do it again!

and so it begins...

crafts for pretty much everyone they know
my creations are resting on the back of the chair

glitter on glitter glue

each present unique based on the things the recipient likes

bedtime...finally! 

autographed ornament

the daily fresh new hell: an update--a continuation in the saga of health insurance + chronic disease

I know y'all have just been dying for an update on how the health insurance situation turned out. You can read part one of that journey to refresh your memories.

Don't want to read it all again? Here's the cliff notes version: I switched health insurance plans this August from my family's plan to an individual plan through student health insurance at my job/school. Something happened and it turned out that I didn't have health insurance for about a month--after I had already been visiting physicians. After 6 unnecessary visits and 4 unnecessary phone calls to deal with the situation, I thought I mostly had it squared away. I still didn't know if my deductible from the previous plan would roll over (most major medical plans allow you to do this, you just have to ask), but that didn't seem like the most pressing concern in September.

Fast forward to the first week of November.

I received an email from the student health insurance coordinator at UNMC. This is 2.5 months after I've written a letter to UNMC asking to have my deductible roll over. And she has just now finally received it. She is thoroughly confused (she was on vacation during the September situation) because according to her, I'm not even enrolled in the student health plan and no one has paid for it. The situation is convoluted and complicated, so I call her back instead of trying to mess with an email that will end up being more confusing than helpful (5th unnecessary phone call).

Turns out the insurance was never charged to my student account because of a mistake by the student services folks, so it wasn't ever paid for by my graduate assistantship. Two more unnecessary visits (7th and 8th unnecessary visits) to HR and accounting and about 15 emails later, it was paid for and dealt with.

So I thought.

Fast forward two weeks when I called the pharmacy for a medication refill and they informed me that I didn't have health insurance again. Because my new pharmacy is amazing, they called the insurance company several times (6th, 7th, and 8th unnecessary phone calls) to try and figure out what was happening--side note: initially this prescription was mistakenly ordered by a physician for me two weeks prior during the whole "it's not paid for" debacle and it ran normally as though I had insurance, so at least I knew I had insurance through that point. The insurance company informed the pharmacy that my plan had been cancelled (which, by the way, I don't think it's super legal to cancel someone's insurance plan without notifying them).

After several more phone calls (9th and 10th unnecessary phone calls) and a very strongly worded email (16th unnecessary email) to pretty much everyone I had been in contact with over the past semester regarding my health insurance and all state and national political representatives, it seems that I have health insurance again and a guarantee that they won't screw up in the future (and a string of about another 10 emails--17th-26th unnecessary emails). It turns out that because my plan was emergently issued in September, it didn't go through the correct channels at BCBS/Ascension and they cancelled the plan on November 20th (~2 months after they first issued it after I discovered I was without health insurance) (11th and 12th unnecessary phone calls).

It was finally re-instated 3 months to the day after the plan was supposed to initially begin and truthfully, I'm not all that hopeful that something else won't go wrong again. Again, I say that it is not the fault of Affordable Care Act. There were processes that went wrong on both the UNMC and Blue Cross Blue Shield sides--processes that have been in place far longer than the ACA has existed. I'd like to imagine that each company is evaluating their procedures to prevent this from happening to someone else, but honestly I'm not so confident that they are. But I do know that something needs to change because my experience was not acceptable.

If one of the largest employers and the largest insurance provider in Nebraska can't figure out how to coordinate their systems in order to actually insure people, how in the world is there hope for everyone else? 

Oh, and I STILL don't know if my deductible is going to roll over...

thankful.

Over the past couple of weeks I've been thinking quite a bit about graduation and getting a job in the "real world" in August when my program ends. I won't lie, this is causing a fair amount of anxiety because I pretty much have no idea what in the world I want to do--or where in the world I want to do it--(and because it seems that I'm asked the "What kind of job are you going to get after graduation?" question at least 4 times per day over the past month).

But I've also felt an overwhelming feeling of calm/peace/wholeness/gratitude (some mix of the aforementioned plus others...basically I've got all the feels lately!) for how fortunate I have been in the past year and a half to so easily transition into public health. I'm thankful for the community that surrounds me and encourages me each day. And for how fortunate I am to have found a career path that truly makes me feel alive with passion and enthusiasm.

Even in the past month, amidst final paper writing and several assignments (just one more to turn in by Friday...and I can't seem to make myself sit down and spend the 20 minutes to finish it...so many more fun Christmas-y things to do!), I have had some of the coolest experiences of my life. I just need to take a second to thank all of you for how awesome you are and how much you've shaped my life.

I'm thankful for:

• my family being close so we can visit frequently. 
• UNMC COM Class of 2016 and 2017 friends who continue to include me in on things and encourage me to eat caramel apples and truffles after a huge meal (thanks Jill and Mer). 
• Ballet Nebraska friends who enrich my life with amazing dance--on stage and in the studio--but also are the most wonderful of friends. 
• ELCA World Hunger folks in Nebraska and Chicago who teach me new things and also are fierce believers that you don't need to have years of experience in order to make a difference and do work. 

• Nebraska AIDS Project staff and volunteers who allow me to have a productive outlet for my peer educator side. And for pushing me outside of my comfort zone to become a HIV tester and counselor trainer. 
• the students that I work with at UNMC who inspire me each day to continue making a difference for those who are underserved in the Omaha community. 
• my schooling. My, oh my has the past year and half gone by quickly (technically I "graduate" with my first degree on Friday, but I'm not even going to the ceremony...next year though!) and I've learned so much. 

• the women of the MCH program. These ladies are warriors for women's health and rights. I'm reminded all the time of how much good they will do in the world. I'm hoping to stay along for the ride. 

• the Things That Matter podcast and for the people that Mitch, John and I meet along the way. (Look out for new episodes coming your way soon!)
• HC friends who won't let me off the hook when I forget to schedule Skype calls (and for unabashedly begging for me to come visit *cough, Dan, cough*).
• the ELCA Young Adult cohort who have encouraged me to think about the world in a new way and have been friends through the rough months of the past year. 
• Laura, whom makes me laugh out loud at least once per day. 

• the First Lutheran Church community. It's quite a blessing to be part of a Church body that passes the peace for longer than any other single part of the service and a group of people that is welcoming to literally everyone. 
• my doctors who have helped me to become healthy! 

• the ability to travel over the past year! So many things to see, so little time! 

What an incredible year it's been. This year wouldn't have been the same without you. Thanks for being there alongside me in the crazy, beautiful life. And thanks for embracing, encouraging, inspiring, supporting, challenging and believing in me along the way.

Crohn's and Colitis Awareness Week

Hooray! It's apparently Crohn's and Colitis Awareness Week yet again. Last year I wrote about the experience of being a patient with a chronic condition. Today in honor of #PurpleFriday, I'll show off my newly dyed hairs. 

And I'll also let you in on a short list of things not to say to people living with Crohn's or Colitis. Many of these things apply for other illnesses as well. We know you mean well when you say these things, but often it comes across poorly. A special thanks to some fellow chronies, Martha and Shannon, who helped me to come up with the list. 

1. "You look great! You've lost weight!"<---this one is my absolute least favorite thing to hear. The converse is true also after I've been taking steroids and quickly put on some lbs. after rage eating everything in the vicinity. Trust me, you do not want diet secrets from me. 
• Bottom line: don't comment on anyone's weight. Really, just don't do it. It's almost always a bad idea, but especially not so nice to do to someone with bowel issues. 
• Also a close runner up: "You're so lucky you can eat anything and stay thin." Malnourishment is a real concern in the middle of a flare up. Often force feeding high-calorie foods is required, although I would really rather not put anything into my body at all. 
2. "Is it okay for you to eat that?"/"I bet if you cut out dairy/gluten/meat/GMOs out of your diet you'd be fine." Each person's disease is different. And each day is different. There are certainly foods I stay away from (popcorn and seeds of any kind) but we all are our own experts on the disease and how we react to foods. 
3. "You don't look sick."/ "You seemed okay last week." This one is big. And not just for IBD sufferers. Crohn's and colitis are part of a group of diseases lovingly called "invisible illnesses" because you really can't tell from the outside what's going on. This includes multiple sclerosis, lupus, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, depression, migraines, Lyme disease, PCOS, endometriosis, etc. I'm really putting forth an effort here to appear normal. It's quite possible I spent the better part of my day just getting ready to go into public. Some days are harder than others though--fake it 'til you make it (and then pay for it later with fatigue). 
4. "My friend/cousin/random acquaintance was cured by essential oils/yoga/meditation/deep breathing/vitamins, you should do that."/"Just take Tums or Pepto!" I know you're just trying to help. But I promise you, I've tried everything. I swear to you, that no one enjoys swallowing handfuls of pills less than I do. And neither Tums nor Pepto is going to help me any. Also, as of right now, there's no cure. 
5. "Why are you so tired? You didn't do anything today."/"If you're tired just take a nap or drink some caffeine!" Oh the fatigue. The combination of medication, your own body trying to destroy itself, and the desire to just be normal really does add up some days. Although it sounds so ridiculous, there are days where I have to nap after taking a shower because I'm already exhausted. And then I feel guilty about being fatigued, so then I overdo it and thus the fatigue cycle continues. This was pretty much all of medical school on repeat. P.S. Adding caffeine is really the worst thing to do for gut stuff...it definitely doesn't make the problem any better. 
6. "It's just Crohn's. It's not like it's cancer and going to kill you." I've never personally had this one, but I can resonate with why it would be frustrating. And truthfully, when you're really sick there are moments when you wish it would just kill you already because living every day for the rest of your life with it sounds like the worst hell of all. But I also want to point out that the side effects of the medications and the disease are actually very real and can be life threatening. 

And here's a list of things to say or do instead.

• "You look healthier than the last time I saw you. Are you on the road to better health?" Make it not about size, but on health and well-being. Or even better...don't comment on outward appearances at all. Just tell us you're happy to see us!
• "I'd like to hang out. You choose the venue--we don't have to eat/go for coffee if you'd prefer not to." The disease is isolating enough as is. We need you to still stick around and invite us to things--even if we've missed the past 10 things because we were ill--we won't feel pressured, just reassured that you're still there for us and supporting us. 
• "I know you're in the middle of a flare, can I come over and do XYZ task for you (load the dishwasher, vacuum, go grocery shopping)." Make the offer specific and recognize that we may not have the energy to hang out for hours afterward, but that we sincerely do appreciate the help. 

I promise you that we are not expecting perfection, but even a little bit goes a long way. But most importantly, if it sounds like you're policing my body/food intake/bathroom experiences, please don't (unless I'm an infant, in which case please continue to do so). Just ask how you can better support me instead! 

World AIDS Day 2015

I celebrated this World AIDS Day (today!) by volunteering at Nebraska AIDS Project as the HIV test administrator. This evening we tested 11 individuals in just under 2 hours (which is actually quite a lot considering the test takes 20+ mins to run!). I feel like I've been doing this work a long time now--just over 10 years--and still so many have no idea how to protect themselves and 12.8% of 1.2 million people living with HIV in the U.S. don't know their status. HIV is not a death sentence anymore, but there are still so many disparities and stigmas associated with this disease. There are ~50,000 newly diagnosed cases each year in the United States.

Don't want to be one of them?

Know your status and know your facts. HIV can be transmitted via:

1. unprotected vaginal, anal, or oral sex with an infected person,
2. sharing needles for injection drugs, piercings or tattoos with an infected person (aka blood-to-blood contact--not so much of an issue in the U.S. anymore, but in the early days blood transfusions were an issue. Now all blood is screened by the Red Cross before it's put into the general blood supply),
3. from an infected mother to her baby during pregnancy, birth or breastfeeding

The bodily fluids to avoid are: blood, semen, vaginal fluid, and breast milk. Recently the CDC has also added rectal fluids to the list too!

Education is really the best way to reduce the number of new cases. Know your status. Know your partner's status. Encourage your friends to get tested as well. Use protection during sexual acts. Don't share injection drug works. Learn about HIV transmission, safe and consensual sexual practices, and maybe even what other STDs are prominent in your area and how to protect yourself. You all know that I am a huge proponent for comprehensive sexuality education in schools. You should be too. These classes talk about much more than sex--partner negotiation, consent, healthy vs. unhealthy relationships, etc. Our young people aged 13-24 compromise only 16% of the U.S. population, but account for 26% of all new HIV infections in 2010 (the most recent data available).

But most importantly we need to have some serious conversations about stigma and discrimination. There are many people that I know and love living (happy and normal!) lives with HIV, but not everyone who is HIV+ has had such a positive response by their community. There are some key populations that are especially stigmatized and discriminated against--men who have sex with men, transgender women, black women, sex workers, IV drug users, trafficking victims, migrants, Hispanic women and others). We cannot and should not continue treating those who are positive as second class citizens. Love and respect your neighbors, folks. Reconcile old grievances and move forward together.

Want to get tested? Find a location near you!

Want to learn more about HIV? Visit the CDC website.

TAY-HAAS: Part 2

Last fall I went to Texas for a conference of hunger, global mission, and justice leaders within the ELCA in the Midwest region. You can read about my time on the border last year.

This past weekend I headed again to the conference, this time in Argyle, Texas at Briarwood Retreat Center. While there was no International Nacho Festival to celebrate this go around, there was still plenty to learn!

There were conversations on racism in the church and some possible suggestions on how to overcome it (yes, white people, we've got to step up). There was a training session on the power of storytelling in recruitment and leadership (heads up students I work with...we're doing this in the spring! :) ); there was an update on the situation in the Holy Land and the ELCA's response via the Peace Not Walls initiative. And there were also updates on the work of ELCA World Hunger.

I was so honored to be able to present some of the ELCA World Hunger's information! While the lovely Mikka presented the majority of it (and boy was I thankful...some of the questions she got were ha-ard), I got to do a few small pieces based on my internship this past summer and my time with the ELCA Young Adult Cohort. It was great and awesome practice for the coming year(s) when I hope to speak more about ELCA World Hunger and the great work they do. I'm actually going to be part of a training conference next month to improve my skillz.

I also found out that Nebraska is hosting our very own Walk for Water, so I'm excited to join in all the fun and planning for that too! Maybe I can paint another sweet photo op too :) Get ready Nebraska, we're about to have some fun!

next time I'll do without the sweet knee brace..but you better bet I'll have a fanny pack!  

Bridge to Care Health Fair and my visit to Wayne, America

I just wanted to give a little follow up to a blog post from a few weeks ago about the health fair I was part of hosting for refugees in Omaha. I also thought I'd give a quick update about the rest of my busy weekend also! 

The health fair was wildly successful! We had 310 refugees in attendance, 135 student volunteers, and about 75 community vendors/volunteers. The health fair planning team really outdid themselves! Such a great group of students to work with. (Speaking of, I'm thinking of running a series of posts about what each of the groups do that I get to work with for work....stay tuned!)

Health Fair Planning Dream Team! 

all Bridge to Care members volunteering at the health fair
(this is maybe a bit over half of the whole team!)

After the health fair, I headed up to Wayne, Nebraska to preach at Our Savior's Lutheran Church about ELCA World Hunger. It went well, I think! The best part of the weekend was staying at a friend's house and seeing their businesses booming in Wayne! Mark and Lucas bought a house two years ago that was built in 1893. They've been redoing it to its former glory in that time all in preparation for the Wayne Tour of Homes last weekend. So that meant it was Christmas EVERYWHERE when I arrived. It was great!!

The house was amazing. Their coffee shop (The Coffee Shoppe) and their thrift/antique store (Rustic Treasures) were also great (I was quite excited to get a few decorations and a mini crock pot while I was there!). The local steakhouse was amazing too--high praise coming from a vegetarian. I guess Wayne, America really has some good things going on. 

Really the only disappointment of the weekend was when Mark told me that he had just gone home to vacuum up the glitter off the bed I would be sleeping in. Why in the world would anyone remove glitter from my life?!?! :) 

Now that the Tour of Homes is over, I can share some of the photos! 

the gorgeous dining room table

the tree in my room: winter fruit!

inside the turret

dining area #2 (I'm sure there's a more
formal name for this, but I don't know it!)

this was my favorite tree: Brass and Glass!

TV area with fireplace

the original coal burning fireplace

stairwell

another upstairs bedroom 

the turret on the first floor

To welcome or not welcome refugees: a discussion

As with many things in our modern society, the acceptance of Syrian refugees into the United States has become quite divisive. Especially along political lines. And mostly that just results in a lot of screaming and yelling across the aisle with no productive outcomes. I'm personally tired of thinking I should be the loudest voice so that my ideas come to fruition.

So instead, I'm going to listen.

I am struggling to understand why so many Americans, especially Christian Americans, are opposed to welcoming refugees into the United States. I certainly understand the fear of terrorism in the wake of the recent attacks, but those that are committing acts of terrorism are exactly the people whom refugees are fleeing. Refugee families have the exact same fears that we do--except that they often have been living this fear in a very visceral way as their cities experience unspeakable acts of violence as ISIS gains power. This is not something that is a problem for people halfway across the world to them. Instead this is in their front yard and in their neighborhoods. This is in their schools, parks, and churches. They live in a perpetual state of fear (which wreaks havoc on health, but that discussion is for another time).

This is going to be new for my blog, but I would like to invite you all to conversation about whether or not you think that the U.S. should accept Syrian refugees and why. Now just a few ground rules:

1. This is still my blog and I will shut it down if you are rude to each other. This is an exercise in listening to each others' opinions and hopefully learning something along the way. It's a discussion though, so there will certainly be varying positions on the issue. This means that I reserve the right to delete comments that are purposefully inflammatory. 
2. Please use "I" statements and not "we" statements when you are discussing your thoughts. You can speak for yourself but not all men/women/Americans/Christians/Muslims/etc. 
3. Let's check our privilege. While I do have readers from many countries, the vast majority of us are from developed nations and have never fled somewhere with our families for fear of losing our lives. I know that I have never been in fear for my life like that and it's fairly reasonable to assume that most of you haven't either. If you have, please share your experience with us as you see fit. 

So here's where I currently am:

As an American: On Thursday we celebrate a holiday where we were the refugees and Americans welcomed, fed us and kept us alive through the winter. The vast majority of Americans come from immigrant/migrant/refugee families (for those of you--including myself--of Native American descent, we really need to do a better job of apologizing for all of the terrible destruction we've (Caucasian Americans) caused and continue to cause in your communities. Institutional racism is a terrible thing and not something that we will solve with this discussion alone). Sure, this is several generations removed for some of us, but it doesn't make it any less true. I've met and worked with many refugees and all of them have been grateful for the opportunities they were provided once they arrived here--although the process to get here was arduous. Although many of them are not so excited about Nebraska winters, they are so thankful to be out of their home countries which they fled and out of the refugee camps which often are so very dangerous. These are not the people that want anything bad to happen to the people in the country which they now consider home. 

As a Christian: The most obvious (and seasonally appropriate) story is that of Jesus's family fleeing Herod. In Matthew 2:13-23, we read that angels told Joseph to GTFO (for lack of a better term) because Herod wants this tiny baby killed. The person we claim as our Lord and Savior was once a refugee. Tracing back to our roots, well before we were considered Christian, we were a migrant/refugee population (see pretty much any part of Exodus). And frequently throughout the Bible you'll find sprinklings of messages regarding hospitality to the "other." We read in Ezekiel 16:49-50, Matthew 10:14-15, and Luke 10:7-16 about the sins of Sodom and Gomorrah (Genesis 19) being that of non-hospitality. The city was destroyed because they were not welcoming to the strangers in their midst. And again in Matthew 25:31-46 we read about the judgement of nations, "...for I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, I was naked and you gave me clothing, I was sick and you took care of me, I was in prison and you visited me....Truly I tell you, just as you did it to one of the least of these who are members of my family, you did it to me." If we take the Gospel seriously, how in the world can we not welcome Syrian refugees into our midst? 

I'm hoping to be in dialogue with you, American Christians that oppose welcoming refugees, because I do not understand your point of view currently. Help me to see where you're coming from. In both senses, we were refugees and were welcomed into this land and others. Why are we not extending this hospitality to others?

So tell me what you're thinking. Please remember to not be rude/inflammatory, use "I" statements, and to check your privilege. But I really do want to hear from you, readers. Because while I think my ideas on things are great, they are not the only ideas and I want to understand your point of view better.

As an added bonus, if you're curious about learning more about the screening process for new refugees to the U.S. you can look at this handy infographic that explains all of the steps.

The Omaha response to Paris

As the world mourns the unconscionable terrorist attacks in Paris last night, I'm sure that we will soon hear more arguments for closing borders to Syrians because "they are all ISIS terrorists." But Omaha is responding today in a big way and I am so proud to be part of it.

Today one of the groups I oversee is sponsoring a health fair for refugee populations. We expect around 500 refugees and will provide health services such as blood pressure, glucose, vision, dental, hearing, and STD screenings as well as free flu shots. We also have free glasses and glasses cases. There are educational booths on poison control, sun safety, developmental milestones, insurance attainment, tobacco cessation, immunization schedules, and many more.

I am so proud to work with the amazing individuals who have planned and coordinated the event. And I'm even more proud of the message this can send... "To those of you fleeing from persecution, we welcome you to Omaha." The first wave of Syrian refugees have begun to come to Omaha and certainly that will change the programming/services we provide for our biennial health fairs, bi-monthly health education sessions, and mentoring sessions with refugee youth--we tailor our programming/services to the needs of the specific refugee community. I think it's an important reminder that those who are committing these acts of terror are the exact same people that refugees are fleeing from. And we can become the safe haven for those refugees to finally feel some semblance of safety in their lives after years (and sometimes decades) of unrest.

Today truly I am proud to be part of Omaha.

Great news for Nebraska!

We get this daily email with updates about things that are going on at UNMC. And today the most wonderful news was attached!

Nebraska Medicine (the hospital associated with UNMC) received a large donation from the Scott family to become one of the top centers in the U.S. for treatment and research for inflammatory bowel disorders (IBD). Crohn's disease and ulcerative colitis are the two primary autoimmune disorders classified under IBD. The two conditions affect an estimated 1.6 million Americans.

As many of you know, I have Crohn's disease and I'm so excited that this incredible research center is going to be literally across the street from me now. They're going to recruit new physicians, researchers, support staff and others. And most importantly, they are going to integrate care into a team-based approach, which from a patient perspective feels less-than-optimal at the moment.

This is a HUGE win for Nebraskans with IBD--soon we will be able to be enrolled in research trials to someday find a cure (or at least legitimate long-term treatments).

You can read the whole announcement here.

the long lost photos of UN CSW

Lookie, lookie what I found! Long lost photos from my time at UN Commission on the Status of Women. Thought I would share them with you all now.

hard at work planning the World Hunger donors event

I promise I was stuffing my face just a few seconds before this.
I purposely staked out by the food (dessert) table because I have priorities in life. 

The whole group! ELCA YA cohort, international women and staff. 

This is me giving my testimony/personal story during Chapel about
cycles of poverty, violence and low educational attainment being intergenerational.
Health is certainly affected by many things, but it's also affected by the health of your parents and grandparents. 

the group post-Chapel 

Apparently the first time of finally getting to talk to Kaleb
right before I left at the end of the week, was somehow disconcerting to me. 

so thankful for these women and men.
ELCA YA cohort 

Walk for Water: We did it!

I'm so excited to be able to share this...the fundraising campaign that we highlighted at the ELCA Youth Gathering this summer, reached it's goal of $500,000 (matched dollar for dollar) several weeks ago. (I'll let you in on a little secret...I definitely knew about it weeks ago, but couldn't post anything about it until it became public). This money will fund water projects supported by ELCA World Hunger in many countries which is super amazing. Watch the video and see how it went! I am honored to be even a teeny tiny part of this during my time in Chicago this summer. Lots of thanks to people that donated and many more thanks to my friends and colleagues who were behind the scenes making it happen. A special thanks to the ELCA family that is matching the donations also. Now it's time to celebrate!!

Dear Church: A Letter on Being a Young Adult

I actually wrote this much earlier this summer after a perfect storm of events, but the final one was a lunch with Bishop Elizabeth Eaton and the other interns. It seemed like I had been hearing just so much about how the Church was dying because we didn't have enough young adults. And I am not really sure that's true. It didn't end up getting posted in the other locations I thought it would, so I figured I'd share it here. Certainly my denomination is not the only one experiencing dwindling membership, but I can only write about my experience in the ELCA.

Dear Church,

I’m not your token young adult.  Please stop treating me as one.

It seems every other week or so there’s some news story or “recent” study coming out to say that mainline Protestant Church membership is declining. And the following week there’s another news story about the best way to get young adults into your church to save it from decline/collapse.

I’m going to be bold and just say it. I hate these articles. I never read them. And I don’t find any truth in them. The notion that young adults will swoop in and save the Church seems harmful and blatantly misleading.   

You see, young adults are already in this Church.  Some have committed to years of volunteer service both domestically and abroad. There are young adults doing amazing work at camp. And campus ministry. And even in your parishes doing any number of things. We are in the trenches doing justice work and on the hill doing advocacy work.

But sometimes you don’t see us. Or sometimes when you do finally see us, you hover and overcrowding turns us off to showing up in traditional worship spaces. And other times you use these gimmicks to get our butts in the pews that we see right through. Big flashy church with lights and professional singers on a stage with the newest and hippest contemporary Christian music is personally not my thing. It’s so shiny and staged.  And I hate it (don’t get me wrong, I love shiny things generally…my favorite color is silver, with glitter being a close second). But I don’t want shiny Church.

I want real.

I want a safe space, rooted in tradition, re-imagined in the modern world, that allows me to question, to converse, to discern, to get it wrong before I get it right, to work, to worship, to serve, to play, to love, and to be loved. I don’t need programmatic experiences especially designed to hook Millennials. I’m not really interested in this. I am much more interested in how Church interacts with the world.

I am much more interested in the intersections of my own life, and the lives of those around me, and how those play out in the world. I am much more interested in how privilege can be used to find voice and space from those that are oppressed. I am much more interested in conversations about how being female in the world and in the Church has shaped my perception of the world. And especially how this femininity both gives me power and also relegates me to second-class citizenship, depending on the situation. I am much more interested in learning how being a child of God should affect how I interact in the world.

My favorite and most transformative moments in my faith journey have been with small groups of people conversing about faith and secular worlds colliding in the justice work they are doing. Other “mountain-top” moments for me include the time I spent in silence at a monastery in France. These experiences are not new and shiny; they are “boring” and “old.”

I’m not asking you, Church, to come up with some beautiful, new, shiny plan to get me into the building. I’m not asking for a strategic 3-year plan about increased membership and offering intake from the under-35 demographic.

I want you to be genuine. Authenticity is what I value most. Don’t try to be hip. I, and others, will see right through it. You know why? Because I’m not hip. I play bassoon and I get really amped up when I talk about neuroscience and Lutheran theology. If your congregation is really great at High-Church liturgies and welcoming people to the Table, do that. If you are really great at being a feeding or clothing ministry, do that. If you are really awesome at inviting others to share their stories during worship, do that.

I am asking you to accompany me, Church, as you have thousands of others before me, on my spiritual journey. I am asking you to accept that Church might be happening outside your four walls and that’s okay. That’s actually part of the imperative we get from Jesus (Matthew 25:35-40 among others) and the example that he set for us (I mean how many times were any of his miracles within the 4 walls of a synagogue?). I am asking you to stop considering me as your token young adult that will somehow change your ministry, evangelize and save your congregation someday.

We are already here. We may not be inside, but we are here. Some Sundays, you may not see our bums in the pews, because we are out and about, doing the work of the Church. Come see us. Come join us. But please remember to invite us back with you, too. We can both learn from each other; let’s be Church together and bridge the gap.

Sincerely,

Jenny

Cleopatra, Elton John, & chocolate

(yeah....this was supposed to get posted last week, but somehow slipped my mind. Maybe a chocolate coma...?)

This weekend was a busy one--local artists, a "food" festival and a legend!

Friday night I had the privilege to watch Ballet Nebraska in their season opener, Cleopatra. I've been hearing all about the show for weeks, so I'm happy to have finally watched it! It was also wonderful to have Kelsey's parents come for the weekend. So much ballet love! I somehow made it out of the theater without taking any pictures with any cast members (perhaps because I didn't want a close up of the blue make up...? ;)--kidding!), but it was fabulous nonetheless. Amazing job, Claire and Ballet Nebraska!!

We prepare for Elton differently...
one representing some of his best musical work
& the other representing his fab-u-lous & fashionable sense of style! 

On Saturday, we headed to see Elton John. I heard somewhere recently that he was going to stop touring so much so he could see his kids grow up, so I grabbed the chance to see him before he was done. Whoa. What a concert! It was a solid 2.5 hours of him performing. It's pretty impressive that he's been at it for 47 years now. I can understand the desire to slow down on touring after that long too. He wore a sparkly suit and I was elated that we matched (AND gold shoes which were amazeballs...do you think he'd share them with me?). My friend Laura even wrote a column about the experience.

Bennie and the Jets

Philadelphia Freedom  

Crocodile Rock  

On Sunday, my parents joined Laura and me for Omaha's Chocolate Festival. While I think the whole Sharrick clan was hoping for more chocolates, instead of so many chocolate desserts, it was overall delicious. We decided that chocolate tea--no matter if it's flavored with caramel, raspberry, peach or some other mystery flavor--tastes mostly just like tea. Our favorite booth was the Iowa Western Culinary student booth because they brought truffles around the whole place for people waiting in lines and because they were teaching the kiddos how to make chocolate roses. It's a little bit disappointing that they didn't offer to teach Laura and me, but still their truffles and other chocolates were delicious. They even had a little tasting booth where you could take bitter or dark chocolate and put different spices on it--cinnamon, ginger, and others. It really was an informative booth. My second favorite was the Stam booth because 1. I've always loved them and 2. it was nice to catch up with a friend from college's parents who own the store--Hey Laura B-M! My Dad called me as soon as they got back to Hastings to inform me that he had consumed all of the chocolate except for the 3 pages of fudge he purchased. That man is truly a legend and should be an inspiration to us all.

my haul

Jim's haul (plus things already consumed & fudge)

Deb's haul

chocolate teas

my tiny chocolate mousse mug! 

United Nations Commission on the Status of Women: Part 2

Got my UN flag to add to the collection! :) 

Welcome to part 2 of my UN Commission on the Status of Women experience last March! This post actually has the bulk of the sessions I went to, but for my reader's sake (and to prevent your poor eyeballs from tiring out on my ramblings) I wanted to split it into two posts. There was an incredible amount that happened in that short week--and sleep was not really one of those things. A special shout out to my roommate, Erin, for putting up with me for the week in our teeny tiny Ikea hotel with all of the stuff I over packed :) 








Maternal Health (Tuesday)

UN member state flags lining the stairwell the ambassadors take
while going into the GA chambers 

Truthfully, the only thing I remember about this session was that it was underwhelming. I didn't even take notes in it. I vaguely remember being upset that the conversation was around older ideas of maternal health and wasn't really talking about anything that has come out of the Maternal and Child Health field in the last 20 years. Granted, this is my concentration and focus in school. I've had several classes specifically devoted to maternal and child health (5 classes last year alone...and all of my other classes mention it also). I understand that I have a pretty deep understanding of the field, but I also would have appreciated if they didn't present concepts to improve maternal health (and reduce maternal mortality) that have been around since the Beijing Platform for Action was written 20 years ago. 

I was lucky enough to go visit my friend Em and see the view
from the top of the Bloomberg Tower!
(I totally wasn't supposed to take photos...)

Sacred and Safe: Building Capacity of Faith Communities to Address Gender-Based Violence (Tuesday)

life goal to have a tapestry portrait...?
Ban Ki-moon, UN Secretary General 

This one was a hard one for me. We know that gender-based violence (sexual assault, domestic violence, child marriage, garden variety sexism, etc) is happening in our world and in our communities. How do we, as people of faith, respond to that? There was a panel of speakers that are doing things in their own context (all US based) and some shared stories of incarcerated women who were victims of gender-based violence and ultimately of the justice system too.

"I know there's no violence in heaven and I'm grateful for that. But we need Heaven to touch down here on Earth."-survivor of sexual assault 

"Out of fear, after several instances of reporting the abuse, I killed him. But the jury didn't hear anything about the domestic violence. My situation could have been prevented if the law would have done their job." -survivor of sexual assault/life without parole server

"You can deny domestic violence, but it will come into your sanctuaries. Don't make victims choose between faith and their safety."- Rev. Dr. Whitehead 

"Religion has been part of what has sustained violence against women and children. It's so darn useful. That's why it's hard to eradicate. It controls women." -Rev. Dr. Fortune  

my view for worship one morning

Morning worship (Wednesday)
We hosted worship this morning for the Ecumenical Women. I presented a testimony on the lifecourse approach to healthcare and women's health (my health is affected by my Mom's health from before the time she was born--so my Grandmother's health--and the environment in which I grew up...this is what leads to intergenerational habits and cycles of violence and poverty for many people). There was song, more testimonies and an overall great time worshiping together!

Women and Men partnering in the Elimination of Sexism (Wednesday)
So this wasn't my favorite session, but I do know that it was powerful for many people in the group. The organization that put it on, is a sort of decentralized counseling group that has partnered talk therapy sessions about how patriarchy/sexism/reverse sexism has affected their lives. I spoke with a wonderful woman from Maine, but other than microaggressions, I didn't have much to talk about how sexism personally affected my life. Many others had much more extreme things to talk about. The idea of having partnered talk therapy is really powerful and one that I think should be used elsewhere (you have 2 people partnered together...you set a timer for say 5 mins and one person talks and the other listens. The listening partner cannot verbalize anything for that 5 mins and should just listen. Once the timer has gone off, you switch roles). The act of just listening...and not hearing to respond... is so powerful.


Silent No More: How Can Faith Communities Address Sexism and GBV? (Wednesday)

UN member state flags lining the UN campus

This was the other meet up that we hosted and it was quite successful. I actually spent most of the event waiting for the caterer to bring something, so I wasn't part of it, but the participants had small group conversations, reflection, artistic expression, prayer, and saw examples of the ELCA's work on gender based violence and gender justice. It was so successful that we actually got kicked out of the building because we were taking so long!

Creative Interventions Addressing Critical Health Issues in the Post 2015 Agenda (Thursday)
This was hands-down my favorite session of the whole week. This was also the presentation most rooted in public health core concepts. They pointed out that 25% of our health is determined by the healthcare system and the other 75% is other determinants of health (most notably socioeconomic status and other social status indicators. One presenter worked in Uganda and was explaining that Uganda had the perfect storm of bad health outcomes for women. They had soldiers standing outside of hospitals preventing women and children from getting healthcare. 80% of women give birth with a traditional birth attendant (TBA), despite the fact that they are illegal. So an organization tried a novel approach--they gave the traditional birth attendants some "heart strings." They are simple a string of red, green, and white beads used for illiterate TBAs to measure the pulse of fetuses to detect distress. Rather than perpetuating poor health outcomes and criminalizing women who use TBAs, they decided to do something to improve health. These TBAs often provide holistic prenatal and postpartum care to women and are already within their communities, so health outcomes have improved drastically. This presentation also talked about a really great lifecourse study of post-menopausal women. All around, this was just the best one! 

Three Lives of Women 20 Years After Beijing (Thursday)

Ms. Leymah Gbowee, Nobel Peace Laureate 

The last of the events that we sponsored, this portrayed three women from Palestine, Kenya, and the US about how women's lives have evolved since Beijing and what the role of faith-based organizations have been in the evolution.

“What has really sustained sexual violence is the silence. Once the silence is broken, you have to face the consequences--poverty, more violence, hunger, etc.”-Dr. Fulata Moyo of the World Council of Churches

“I consider education to be a sacred mission.” –Suad Younan on involving male allies in conversations about women's rights and empowerment on the road to gender equality

"Because when a woman flees [from violence], she does so responsibly." -Jen Engquist on her mother wrapping up loose ties when her family had to flee from an abusive father/husband 

"It's hypocritical to speak outside the Church about gender based violence, when we still have it inside. Society is modeled after the Church." -Leymah Gbowee, Nobel Peace Laureate (and a Lutheran!)

Best Practices in Policing and Mental Health Care: Efforts to Promote Gender Equality, Empower Women and Girls, and Reduce Violence Against Women, Children, Minorities and Victims of Human Trafficking (Thursday)

I utterly love this globe sculpture and the flags behind

Often times the justice system does it wrong. They don't end up protecting the victims of violence. However, that's not to say that there aren't police officers, prosecutors, lawyers, victims advocates and others that aren't doing it right. This presentation was put on by them. It was really interesting to be part of considering my relationship with the Douglas County Jail correctional officers (I see them as colleagues when I'm there and testing/educating inmates about STDs and the Hastings Police Department (my Grandma is the chief's secretary))--I know many of these officers personally and know they have best interests at heart. Sometimes the system fails though. 

"I call "violence against women and human trafficking" slavery because it dials up the seriousness, even if some people are uncomfortable with that."-police officer

Human trafficking is a shadow situation. It's not like the slavery before. Everyone is underground now. 17-20 million people are projected to be living as modern day slaves. Even here, at UNCSW, when we think about "international," we don't often think about violence here in the US.

You may think people are being trafficked by strangers, but it might actually be their brothers, fathers and other family members. Most people that are trafficked in the US are from the US.

If we tell women to report domestic violence or sexual assault and they get beaten or have to pay money to press charges, what are we teaching about speaking up?

We also have to be fair to male victims. Most perpetrators are men, but some are women. And those male domestic violence victims are often forgotten.  

My experience in New York was amazing and powerful. And truthfully it has taken me 6 months to be able to write about it. The conversations I continue having around these topics and with the people I was with are so amazing. Just last night we held a conversation/book club about Missoula: Rape and the Justice System in a College Town (Jon Krakauer). It was a hard read, for sure, but I am very thankful for the community to support me while I read. Even more, I'm thankful for conversation partners about these issues since UN-CSW ended.